I Took a blood oath with my boo but now i want to stop the relationship

I took a blood oath with a
girl for my own selfish
reasons. Though I have
feelings for her but if you
ask me, I’d say she has little
feelings for me.
Since taking the oath,  I’m no
longer myself, I isolate myself
from all my good female
friends. This has resulted into
calls for thorough
investigation into what is
going on.
My hands are always on my
cheek whenever I’m alone.
The oath was made between
the both of us. No native
doctor was there. The razor
blade we used; is still with me.
Please I want to know if the
oath is potent without a native
doctor. If it is, please assist
me on what to do.